sad

i guess i saw and know about something i shouldnt see n know again..
am i over-sensitive or what? or i dont really understand what a man wants?
but i thought he was a special one. haha. what a joke. he was juz pretending to be special?? immense jealousy juz inevitably .. clouding my entire mind. yes, i am prosessive...even more from the day..i was being cheated one once..twice. hate this feeling, i wish i am a bit more generous but i can't. i juz want him to let me fully understand his personal life n his work n anything..i think, i at least..got to feel that i am making a right choice. i feel insecure when i am in doubt. yes, i am like this. do u understand??... my hands are shivering as i am typing this as i imagine...how much of him..i do not know yet. what's on hid mind..i am sure i don't know. maybe no one knows, expect himself.


smile...dont show ya sadness. smile.